 | kingofspiritsandflames inquired: "Don't go. Just relax." |
霊 —;; “Oniichan. I’m not gonna go, despite what I feel or think I am happier here. Far happier here. I just…. I miss my mom." He admitted quietly. He really was happy here at his brother’s side, maybe it was his mother’s arms he missed. "Oniichan, can I have a hug…? Just a simple hug to help me feel a bit better.”
Such a difficult thing to understand… but it seemed he meant it. Truly, at times, being a Shaman was not easy. Still, to mention his own death so easily surely meant he had little to no attachment to life. It would make sense… Hao could see the value of the earth itself, but not the things that happened within it.
“I didn’t expect you to warm up to me so quickly…” Had he been so lonely that he would cling to the first person who would accept him? “I hope you’ll find someone among my subordinates to become close to. It will make getting used to everyone much easier. Also, the train is almost here.”
霊 —;; “Well, I believe you’re a good person. Maybe a lil’ rough around the edges… But if all you’re telling me is true then I can trust you whole-heartedly." He gave a soft smile as he tried to help Hao relax.
"Find… Someone else…?" now that made him pause as he looked away, "N-not sure I want to. I don’t exactly get along with others…" he admitted, looking down at his feet now.
| kingofspiritsandflames inquired: "Do you trust me?" |
霊 —;; “With all my heart, Nii-chan. You saved me, I owe you everything. You promised me a better life and I know you’ll be the one who’ll be Shaman King!”
| Anonymous inquired: Do you truly think the world can be reborn? Or are you just fooling yourself? |
霊 —;; “…You dare… I believe such whole-heartedly. Nii-chan said so! Or are you saying Nii-chan’s lying…?”
“You aren’t bothering me… I know you meant no harm. I’m sorry. I told you better things about them because I expected them to be as they always have.” If they started another fight with Yoh, he couldn’t promise they’d make it to the Shaman Fight with all their limbs intact. “I’ll have Turbine keep them in check for now.”
霊 —;; “Nii-chan, don’t worry." Sweet, little Yoh trying to get Hao to pardon them. "I’m sure they won’t do this again, so don’t punish them okay?" Leave it to Yoh, even though they’d hit him, he didn’t want true harm to come to what may well be his new family
“They? How many was it?” There were a few in particular he had in mind and some that were certainly not in mind, his eyes already wandering past the possible attackers.
霊 —;; “Just two. Guess they thought I should be punished… Don’t worry Nii-chan, if I upset you I won’t tease you anymore." Little Yoh was kinda scared now. "Don’t be upset, Nii-chan, I probably deserved it."
“If the person is important to you… of course it hurts.” He hadn’t seen his mother die up close, but he’d heard it… and saw it from afar. Ever since, he’d never even wanted to see a human again. Now, the way he acted near them was… either murderous or he was faking it. Ohachiyo was already a Spirit when they’d met, but losing him was still just as painful. And Matamune…
“It’s connections that hurt. That’s why, up until now, ever since I lost the three most important to me, I’ve only made companions, and not friends. Those people follow me because they believe I am right in my view of the world. Most of them I also saved the lives of, so they probably feel obligated to me. It’s not necessarily because they like me. So, if they die… I’m not sure it would hurt me; even if it sounds cruel. I’m… quite detached from people emotionally.”
霊 —;; “So you’re lonely too…" Yoh couldn’t help it, part of him was still a very loving child so maybe that’s why he wrapped arms around Hao, his own eyes full of sadness. "Don’t worry… Even when I die, I’ll make sure to stay at your side forever as a spirit, okay?" It was a promise Yoh would forever keep, he couldn’t allow the other to be alone ever again. This boy had saved him, so now in turn… He’d save him right back.
"We’ll always be together. Since we’re shamans, not even death will ever keep us apart." h added, trying in his own way to cheer up Hao now.
| kingofspiritsandflames inquired: "Your eye. Yoh, what happened?" He was serious - he would know what happened and which one of his men had hit the boy. |
霊 —;;“Nii-chan…” he mumbled. “Think they got mad cause I said you looked girly with your long hair and all… Didn’t mean it in a bad way… But guess they didn’t listen to my explanation of that.”
He didn’t need to watch the hand to feel it shaking. He would probably be this way until they arrived back at Tokyo. Yoh would probably be settled in by the time they went to America to gather more companions - hopefully he would be, by then.
“I can’t really say anything to make you feel better… because I know words in this situation are meaningless.” He could promise all the best things in the world, but it didn’t mean they would happen. “But I gather a lot of people like us. People with no place to go, or the ones who need to get away… People who are dying… Even the life we live is better than what most of us been through. But it’s normal to be afraid in a situation like this.”
霊 —;; “Words… Are always meaningless." he agreed tiredly."I trust you… But, ’m still scared of the what future might hold." he admitted quietly. "I mean I know I said I never want to return, but I’ll miss my family here…" He just wanted to feel safe again, like he mattered a bit of stability in his life.
"If they’re dying… Is it so wise to become attached…? I know we are shamans to commune with spirits, but… Doesn’t it hurt to watch one die?" he questioned, feeling almost a bit of warmth and pity for the one next to him.
His attention moved to the direction Yoh was coming from, the boy having been late but also having arrived at all. Again, he was speaking a hushed tone, almost as if he were afraid of something. It was fine… He wouldn’t have any fear much longer. The people back in Tokyo who he’d grouped together would get along with him fine.
“I’m here.” He brought himself over to where Yoh was, eyes moving toward the nearby clock. “We have ten more minutes until the train is back.” He looked back to the other boy, the sullen look almost disappointing. “You don’t need to come back. Once you leave here, you’re free. And… I’ll tell you what I should once we’re on the train.” He hadn’t really expected Yoh to be fine going off with a total stranger, but it seemed he trusted him. At least, the feeling of being trusted… was not a bad one.
霊 —;;“Mom and Grandpa were left a note, the rest of my time was spent alerting the lady here and few other spirits I talk to. Then I packed what I valued and left." he admitted quietly. He was grateful, immensely so for what the other was doing for him. "Mom’d have never agreed to this… But for some reason… I don’t care. Better that I leave, go where nobody’ll know ’m some kinda freak than stay here." he whispered.
He placed a shaking hand in Hao’s, grasping the other’s hand for sheer comfort, trying to act like he wasn’t terrified or worried of what may come next. He didn’t even care if this man killed him, so long as he got away with somebody who’d actually been nice to him.
